Week of 2/3/2024: this man is an absolute heart throb, he's so...urgh, with his fancy shiny black car, how dare he show up in my dreams, leave me crushing, making a total fool out of myself, trying to catch a glimpse of him, just once in the day. but i don't know his life, this is driving me insane. one day, i chose to start parking next to him cause i thought his car looked cool. then it be came a routine. now, new people moved in, started parking in my unspoken claimed spot and disrputed that routine for me...which makes this even worse.

i could just talk to him, right? say "don't you hate it when you like parking in a spot then someone takes it?" that would take GUTS, pure unhinged GUTS cause that assumes that he likes parking in that spot.. which i mean yes he has a preference for it. but that's hard to do when there is no common link, we live totally different lives, i different schedules, just everything. i feel all mixed up inside, i want him to notice me, i want to talk to him, say a casual good morning as we're heading down the stairs, just.. ANYTHING!